We'll Never Be Apart by Emiko Jean

Alice is in a mental facility.  She can't remember the incident that landed her there.  She knows she should but it's like her mind is protecting her.  The doctor tells her until she can open up and deal with the issues, she'll stay there.  She doesn't participate in much and won't talk about it.  She's afraid to.

HMH Books for Young Readers and Net Galley allowed me to read this book for review (thank you).  It will be published October 6th and you grab a copy then.

Mental health is a fragile thing.  Alice and her twin found their grandfather dead at the bottom of the stairs when they were four.  All they had to eat was birthday cake.  It took four days before someone noticed they were by themselves.  That experience alone would be mind boggling.

Alice and her twin are in and out of foster homes in the ensuing years.  They meet Jason and fall in love with him.  The bad thing that happened was when Jason and Alice tried to run away.  Her twin set the barn on fire.  Eventually Alice remembers that Jason died.

Going to Jason's funeral, dealing with a new boy who cares about her at the home, and writing in the journal is helping Alice figure things out.  She's trying to get her mind straight.  The bad part is that what she finds out is even more horrible than she thought what she remembered was.

Alice still has a ways to go to mental health.  But Chase is there now and he will help.  He's also patient and kind.  Everyone has secrets.  Some are just harder to handle than others.